If been working so much lately it’s taking a Tole on my personal life . I do get to see the ones I need to see and yesterday when I got home you weren’t thier you stayed with your friend. I was upset but let it go today I’ve seen you for a hour and then off to work I went I am calling your phone but you won’t answer ugh what is going the fuck on
I’ve recently have became very unhappy with the way I look it has taken over my mind. I have secretly began to start trying to loose weight. I don’t want anyone to know because im scared I won’t lose any. Today was day 5 of working out and 2 weeks on a diet pill haven’t got me diet set in stone yet but eating more carefully. The scale is my worst enemy I get on it at least 2 times a day. It keep going up then down but if I go by the most it says I’ve lost some weight I just pray I lose a shit ton more
Your not happy and I can’t give you what you want when I try to I don’t do it right IM not good enough for you. You’ve made that clear I do drive the way I want me to or kiss you the right way I don’t love on you enough and don’t have sex with you enough IM tired of not being enough and the constant bitching
Dads
As I drove past our house that is no longer our home As I do almost weekly this week I seen a car thier I began to cry because I knew that vechile meant someone bought the house the room where you past daddy was light bright and some lady was painting away our memories the home that had been our for 16 years was no longer ours it was hers . The days of me running through the house playing when I was 4 ,the nights we Sat in the Kitchen eat the time spent on those floors coloring eating sleeping , the laughter and fights the screaming the tears the hugs and kisses were being washed away . It’s not fair dad I don’t want it this way I want I here it’s almost been 2 years daddy I love you more then I ever knew and I miss u
